Somers Park Methodist Church
Have you ever found yourself saying "I know what I'm doing, and it's lots of things, and I know how to do them even if I don't have enough time or energy, but right now I'm not sure who I am!" That was me recently. It is so easy to be so busy that we lose sight of ourselves, and the chances are we have lost sight of God too.
In mid May I went on retreat to the lovely Llangasty Retreat Centre in South Wales, on the shores of Llangorse Lake with the Black Mountains immediately behind and the Brecon Beacons just to the west. The "who am I right now" question came the day before I left and was aimed at my wife. Yet the very first day of the retreat as I walked around the lake with house martins overhead and reed buntings in the rushes the answer came to me, quickly and easily. It was from Scripture:
“The Spirit of the Lord is upon me,
because he has anointed me
to bring good news to the poor.
He has sent me to proclaim release to the captives
and recovery of sight to the blind,
to let the oppressed go free,
to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favour.” (Luke 4:18)
This is how Jesus proclaimed his ministry at its start as he preached in his home synagogue in Nazareth. He was quoting the prophet Isaiah, saying the prophecy was fulfilled in himself. Now I am not comparing myself to Jesus, but as I seek to make him the heart of my being these words really resonate with me. They speak of compassion, love, mercy and rescue reaching out into the world. I don't claim to be this person, but it is who I feel called to be by God.
Perhaps there are other passages of Scripture which express who you feel called to be by God. There are so many to choose from, and all good. My point here is I already knew the answer but had lost sight of it because of the busyness of my life. I was fortunate to be able to make a retreat, draw breathe, think, pray and take a step back. I found the answer was not far away.
We all need to do this individually and as the church but we seem to get little opportunity. I am wondering whether we could have a church retreat to Llangasty or somewhere similar for a few days? In the meantime are you so busy that you have lost sight of yourself and perhaps lost sight of God? STOP! BREATHE! REST! As you do so become aware that God, who neither slumbers nor sleeps watches over us, our going out and our coming in, and he never loses sight of us. Who you are in your inner self is right there.
With every blessing